oh man...this weekend has absolutely sucked compared to last weekend. everything about last weekend was perfect, and now nothing is going right this weekend. i guess this weekend has been somewhat of a dissapointment. it has also been somewhat of a reality check. because for the first time i actually felt that high school was actually ending. i mean we've all been talking about it but that feeling never actually hit me until this weekend. and what triggered this feeling was my track meet on saturday. ever since i was a freshman it has been my life goal to qualify for meet of champions. and freshman/sohpmore year it was always something that i talked about but never actually thought would happen. but these past two years it was a realistic goal. last year i was bummed that i didn't qualify, but i knew i had another year left so it wasnt a big deal. but this year when i didn't make it, that was it! no more chances. and i don't mean to sound concieted, but the worse part of it is that i deserve to make it to MOCs. if i had jumped like even a foot less than my PR i would have qualified. and if i went to a group 1 or parochial school i would have made it. and even if i had jumped a PR and not made it, that would even have been OK. but on you're last chance as a high school athlete to perform so badly for yourself like i did is just really upsetting. and not only did that make me sad, but the fact that H.S. track is all over really upset me. i even cried at the meet about it. and that is the 2nd time that i think i've cried in public. it's so weird and scary that i'm never going to run with my teammates that i've had beside me for seven years. or be supported by my coaches that are more like friends. i just wish that i could have ended H.S track on a good note, instead of disappointing myself, my teammates and coaches. but it's not all so bad. other than groups, i had the best last season ever! and it has gotten me really pumped up for running in college.

so all this sentimental track stuff got me thinking about ending high school! i only have one real week of school left. how weird is that??? in less than 20 days i probably won't ever see over 1/2 of my class again.

wow ok i am sounding really depressing right now!!! what happy stuff can i talk about? the yearbooks this year are soo nice! shout out to elyssa for submitting pictures of our friends! so what shall we all do during finals week? something fun!!! let me know if you have any ideas. i think i might go canoeing today, that should be interesting...the pops concert is tomorrow! if anyone is bored tomorrow night they should come to the high school to watch us. its outside and theres food (i think) and you can watch the bands/chorus. yipeee! sports awards are this thursday, my last one! it should be a good time. okkkk time to go! bye friends!

HEY PEOPLE! sorry i haven't updated my xanga in a while, since i know everyone LOVES reading my entries. (i'm totally not self-absorbed at all!) what have i been up to lately? lots of track. and its been going really well! minus the TJ, i was really pleased with my performance at conferences. i was actually the most excited about my 100 time because i love racing and i probably ran a PR b/c my autotime was around the same as what i usually get in hand time. and autotime adds about .3 seconds to your time. so i probably PRed by around .3 seconds! i'm so excited about track in college!!!!

life lately has been pretty good i guess. minus art history i don't do school work anymore. but after art history i'll have to work on senior speeches. but i'm kinda excited to do it because my topic is really interesting and important and i hope i can change lots of peoples minds about buying SUVs! don't buy them!!!! other good things...hmmm...i'm totally over that stupid boy that caused me so much sadness. so i'm very very excited about that. and i have a new possible boy that i have no idea why i am attracted to...its very strange actually. but fun at the same time! so yay boys! (for now at least)

so to give my entry a little art history theme...i'm going to pick my top 10 favorite things i've studied in art history this year! (and i should probably be studying instead of compiling this list, but whatever!)

10. Reims Cathedral: (I picked this one only becuase it scares the shit out of michelle.)

9. La PrimaVera by Botticelli:

8. Sistine Madonna by Raphael:

7. Anything that Salvadori Dali does because he is absolutely crazy so you know whatever he does  it's going to be amazing.

6. Composition X by Kandinsky:

5. The Garden of Earthly Delights by Bosch:

4. Hermes with the Infant Dionysus:

3. Royal Pavilion by John Nash:

2. View of Delft by Vermeer:

1. (this may be a little anticlimatic) Two Young Girls at the Piano by Renoir:

i think it is time for me to do an update! i bought 3 cds last night and they're making me really happy! i got  jeff buckley, iron and wine, and coldplay cds! they're all really good. new music makes me so happy. also yesterday i bought my prom dress with michelle and shanna. we went to freehold mall, the best mall ever!

so let me give a quick update of my life since i haven't written in a while...

yes, i am going to prom (but i'm sure u already figured that out by the prom dress comment above). hopefully it will be lots of fun...thursday might have been my last time at penn relays if the wesleyan team doesn't go there. it was a lot of fun tho! and we ran ok i guess. i just really want us to break 50 seconds and i know if we all have really good days we can do it! but we only have 2 chances EVER left.  my college relay probably won't be as fast as the one i'm on now, thats sad. penn was also fun because we had lots of bonding time. and we saw a certain hottie mchottie. who is really the ultimate hottie. i honestly cant' think of anyone hotter than him. but he wasn't the only hot boy there. thursday was the high school/college girl's day to compete. but lots of the boys from the colleges went to watch their girls run, and they were all soooo hot! like really really hot.

happy belated birthday to my bff laura! i'm glad we got to spend your bday together laura and get thrown the classified adds from some weird waiter.

oh i forgot to talk about the band trip! it was actually not too terrible. haha. it was so not worth $350 tho. all we did was go to shops and malls. but i had major bonding time with shana, maggie, mer (my new bff), bev, tori, bri, etc. so it was cool!

ugh i have lots of hw to do tonight. thats no fun!!! ok bye!

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hello friends!

thanks you so much for coming to my meet yesterdsay. you guys (michelle, laura, alaina, elyssa, larissa, shana, doug, mike, FRAU WOODS!) definitely brought me some good luck. and i hope you guys had a good time watching...track meets can be somewhat entertaining?

i got a new bag over spring break in nyc. its made by these fashion designers in paris. its so nice and i love it! and i also got it on sale. it was originally $388, but i got it for a lot less than that! yay for sales!!! i can't wait to wear it around, it's so pretty!

today in lunch we went into the senior courtyard...except it was kinda akward at first b/c everyone can just look in on you. but whatever! i love the fresh warm air! except when i have to do workouts in that kind of weather, yuck. i'm going to have the hardest workout ever tomorrow, most definitely not looking forward to that.

so i'm not sure if i'm going to prom yet. sometimes i'm like "OMG i'm definitely going!" but then other times i'm just like "ehhh" about it and don't want to go through all the effort and spend all the money. but i guess i'll have to make my decision soon...*sigh*

i love television! its so bad but i really do! mondays should be the worst day of the week, but i look forward to mondays because prison break and 24 are on. and next week michael and the nurse hook up and its going to be sooo hot! and 24 is going to be insane. let's hope i get back in time from the band trip to watch.  and i watched american idol tonight, but it made me really angry b/c america always votes for the wrong people. why is kellie pickler never in the bottom 3??? she is absolutely terrible and sooo annoying! ugh. vote her off!!! i really like katherine mcphee. she has a really good voice and is also really pretty. i really hope seth and summer get back together or i might stop watching the OC. so thats my little tv rantingness.

guys!!! what should i do on my birthday??? i have no idea! somebody just plan it for me and laura b/c we are clueless as to what we should do.